The Dark Side of me

The Dark Side of me
I sit there alone, not a smile to my bone
My voice a harsh whispered tone.
Slashes on my wrists, arms and hands, my mouth in a bloody grin.
... My whole life like I had committed a terrible sin.
Your voice an annoying buzz, false tone, true lies.
If I could speak, I’d say in an almighty sigh.
“ Stop it with the sympathy and pretending to care,
I can see the real you through the false stare
I don’t want your help, your manners, your good grace,
Just say it, you hate me. I can see it in your face.
You’re wasting my time don’t you see?
Don’t look so surprised, this is the dark side of me”

By Samantha Montrose

I Hide My Eyes

When I am feeling emotions that I do not like or want to show then I actually cover , or hide my eyes. This can be done by putting my head in my hands or binding my eyes with something such as cloth. This stops others seeing the emotions and makes me feel safer. Its kind of like a hug from a person. It makes you feel like the world isn’t so huge and scary. Not being able to see makes me feel like there bad things out there don’t actually exist and the ones that do can't see my pain. I am also scared of crowds so it makes me feel like the crowds aren’t so big and aren’t all looking at me.

I also broke my rule about never rhyming and this is a example why I don’t do it. I have stuffed up the rhyming pattern. I did write it during a theatre performance so that’s probably the reason for the poor rhyming.

I hope you like it

I Hide My Eyes

I hide my eyes

I can not see

There hidden from

 all those around me.

My hidden eyes

Stop’s the show

Of dark emotions

From deep below

As I stare through blinded eyes

I miss the glances

Of passes by

I hade away from my fears

And bottle up my unshed tears

If I can’t see then neither can they

The feelings that’ve returned

From far away

I fight, trying to hold them back

But fall to my knees and am

Beaten back

Slammed into the wall and lying

Curled into a ball, heart dying

Cut up inside my body lies

Blind eyes stare blankly at

Broken skies

My mind is swamped

 with doubt and lies

and in that haze my

 mind decides

that every face wears

 accusing eyes

so I stay scared, overwhelmed

wishing for a place to call my own

wishing for she I can call mine

unseen tears fall from sightless eyes

 

HappySadFacedMaskedOne: for a friend

I decided to write this poem for a friend who was going through a hard time. The idea behind this was she always seemed happy, always care free, it was only when you dug deeper that you discovered it was all a mask. A happy mask that covered a sad face, so thus the name HappySadFacedMaskedOne came around. Later on I realised that the name also applied to me so I took the name on my self. And if u google said name you will get my steam profile ( I am the only one with the name J)

I wrote it to show her that she isn’t alone and that I really appreciate all the help she had given me.

 I succeeded. Here it is

Hidden behind a mask of smiles

Is a face that is hiding tears.

Deep beneath that happy exterior

Is a person going through emotional trauma.

But this person has a way with words.

This loving, caring person

Doesn’t let her pain break her will,

but strengthen her,

teach her, not tear her apart.

She uses her pain to help others in need.

But she can’t always suffer in silence,

No shouldn’t, shouldn’t have to.

But we don’t always get what we want do we?

But there may be method in her madness

A flash of brilliance in a dark time.

Is that light at the end of the tunnel,

Or is it your eyes?

It can be whatever you chose.

Doesn’t it suck to have the one you love not even know you exist?

Well yes but if it helps I know how you feel.

Of you keep on working you will reap the rewards,

The harder you work the sweeter the reward ey?

Well all i can say is stay strong happy sad.

You can get there,

It may seem futile at times but it is never futile.

Never stop trying happy sad one,

You are not alone.

Happy sad masked one

You are not alone

So thankyou because of you neither am I.