Hello again

so it has been a while if my memory serves me correctly which it usually doesn't

At least a year

Life is hard and harsh
it go's slow struggling sickly as it slides along
But
in times it fly's past floating be it becasue of Fun fantastic times or
frightful times of fear

please try to play with the people in your pretty lives regardless of how perfect they are
 i am writing these words in a wild place so thinking is very hard atm

i will be back later :) 

Hello my friends

hello :)
its been a while hasnt it :)
i haev been getting better
not so sad :)
i am improving

Losing it

Loseing control

Too much stress

Too much pain

I could let it all go

Loose it all I loose every thing I care about

So I have no more pain

I must lose control

Help me lose control !

Numb the pain ! LET IT GO!!!! Losing control

Too much stress

Too much pain

I could let it all go

Loose it all I loose every thing I care about

So I have no more pain

I must lose control

Help me lose control !

Numb the pain ! LET IT GO!!!!

Lose Control

There’s a trigger that goes off
A feeling that just snaps
When your pushed to a corner
And you gotta fight back
Find your inner f*****g strength
Motivated by there hate
Pull it out when in doubt
An just not give a f**k
Till you break em and they fall
See there pity as the crawl
Cause you’re tired and your weak
From those nights of restless sleep
When you feel like giving up
When you feel like throwing up
When you had it up to here
When you want to disappear
What

!

So rip it up
Tear it down
Smash it up
Burn it down
We’ve lost control of ourselves
Oh oh oh no

Don’t hold back
Let it go
Rise against

Lose control

Numb the pain

Let it flow

Brace yourself

Lose control-BOTDF

Kiss

What is a kiss?
In One Word: Heaven <3

When we kiss not only do our lips meet
but our hearts join hand in hand
our minds join out of undying love
and our souls join perfectly joining us together
as we will always be

Our hearts are one
Our minds are one
Our Blood is one

Your the one

The one for me

-Dedicated to Sam <3

Hello Friend

Let it all out 

let it all go 

Get out your blades

Let the blood flow

Run down your arms

trailing poison red

your pain will be gone 

your pain will be dead

Let it all out 

Let it all go 

Get out your blades

Let the blood flow

The sting of the blade

Welcome old friend

The  blood that follows

Your nearing your end

Let it all out 

Let it all go 

Get out your blades 

Let your self go

Every thing i do ...

Every thing i do i do for you
you are who makes me who i am
you are my light in the darkest of times
who i will get up the earliest times in the morning for
and stay up till the sun rises in the soft blue sky

gYour there when i need you
i will be there ten times over for you
when you are in the darkness let me be your light
let me show you the way
Many hands make light work or so they say
every thing i do i do for you
my friends

Safe

a smile ahead
coz im still in bed
you here becide me
it took me a while to see
that you are there
my head was bare
your beatuty whipes away my troubled thoughts
eyes on eyes no one faught
we move closer
there is a buzz from a toaster
we embrace is a hug
and although i feel like a mug
i know i am safe

-Sam

I see you, I love you

i see you
standing their
standing bare
standing with care
standing Where
i am standing next to me
standing in my arms
loving you in my arms
loving all of your charms
charmes by your beauty
calmed by your beauty

For sam <3

Why try ?

why try, friends fall
why try, skies darken
Why try, friends die
There is nothing we can do
to save out crew
we stand in devestation
Streets dark, odd birds
rubbish blood gore, darkened scene
hand in hand alone
eyes closed lost friends
dead friends
a war for a lost cause
all over leaing nothg behind
like a plague people falling"leanign you and me
but my knees buckle, you hold me up, screaming
my eyes close, darkness rises
im falling like the fallen
your the last one left now

-Sam

Too Tired

Too tired of the mask I wear

I crumble and cry out of despair

I fall down upon my knees

Realising their will never be a place for me

Instability is heaven

I sway I twist and bend screaming and shouting

Kicking and slashing anger , pain emotion thick in my voice

LEAVE ME ALONE ! I shout ! fuck off ! I don’t like you

But they keep coming , the emotions keep coming

My guilt my pain my anger keep coming ,attacking me , hurting me !

I grit my teeth ! your not getting the better of me today !

NEVER ! I AM WHO I AM

AND NO ONE WILL CHANGE THAT ! 

No one can take that from me !

beneath the surface

This poem is kinda strange. I like the imagary in the start but it just got

 really really really really really weird after that. i think it needs more work

A swirling torrent of emotoins

A rushing cascade of thoughts

Bombarding me

Overwhelming me

I slip beneath the surface

Choaking on my unstable thoughts

 

They fill my mouth and rush down my throat

Overwhelming me and overpowering me

Till I am unable to fight

Unable to struggle

Unable to live

Self-Control Or Lack Of It

 

 

I want something: so I get it

I don’t care what it is but I want it and I want it now

I don’t think about the consequences

I don’t think about anything

I ...

I ...

I ...

 

......

 

I am selfish

I have no self-control

I shouldn’t think of I but think of you

Think of what I’m doing to you  

How much I am hurting you

Breaking you

Destroying you

 

But I act not think

I should think

Think about others but no

Its all about me

 

Me

Me

Me

I am worthless compared to the huge

Amazing

you

Don't give up

I struggle so hard but I’m almost at the end

One final stretch then I’ve made it my friend

I struggle, weep, bite and claw

Away from the darkness and its maw

Just grit your teeth and stand your ground

Surround yourself with those you love

By your side defiant they stand

To fight with you hand in hand.

For all those who are doing your final year at school don’t give up your almost there. Year 12 is almost over in Australia so just stand your ground and you can make it, we can make it.

Best of luck friends

-Cleft Lip Kid

Lie

Here I lie

Unable to decide

Hating my life

Hoping to die

 

Pathetically I cry

Tears streak form my eye

I try to deny

As I run from the lie

 

My Precious Friend

Ignore the differences
the differences between them and us
life and death you and me
In this night,
We can come together and breathe together
dance together, stand together.
Alone we are weak and vulnerable, together we have courage.
- The butterflies wings

thoes are words to live by. It is a extract from the poem the blood of a beast
It was written by My precious friend who resides at
http://savakora-butterfly.tumblr.com/

She has a heart bigger then most
people don't understand her but they should
If they did they would see her true beauty

I am truely blessed to know her

Break me

Our lips touch and my heart cry’s out

A pleading heart felt beg that never wants you to stop

To continue for ever, don’t stop, forever

 

The pressure builds as I struggle to fight it.

To hold it locked far far far behind my iron prison

But my bars are bending and my walls are crumbling

Fighting begging to break free

 

It has been traped there for so long

In its bottles it boils simmering struggling to escape

Kicks and it screams, it rips and it tears

Eventually im going to break

 

This pressure is love this pressure comes from the heart

This pressure begs you for more.

You can make me yuou can break me

Just fight on a little bit more
 

You must break me

Try and break me

Break me

Please

I Hate You. I Hate Me

I Hate You

Your such a fool, always fucking up

You make mistakes and never learn from them

How many broken people do you have to heart

How many disappointed gazes do you want to get?

 

How many?

How many crying friends

How many Broken hearts

How many Pathetic stupid mistakes

How many times will you FUCK UP !

 

You try so hard but trying is never enough!

Stop feeling sorry for your pathetic self

 

Actually Try and … oh I don’t know CHANGE!

 

You might actually achieve something

Instead of just pain

 

I HATE YOU 

I hate everything about you

I hate you

You are me

 

I hate you I hate me

 

The Power Of Distractoin

Never underestimate the power of distractions

Distractions can be heaven, distractions can be hell

They can be your worst nightmare or your best saviour

 

It can bring you out of your hateful sadness

Or throw you back in ten times harder

The power, heaven, the hell

 

Distractions